God’s Hope… There’s Still So Much to Spread

Komo 4 did a news segment about Nick (and me, I guess) and the Seahawks that first aired on last night’s 11 o’clock news and also did a radio story about the Hawks and Nick’s legacy as well. Two different reporters and two different angles. Both very cool.

I also found out that Nick’s video on FaithIt (a website whose goal is to spread the word that God is awesome) is one of their top most viewed videos right now. Wow.

I am so incredibly thankful that our story is being shared. I am so insanely happy that it’s being spread. Not for me, and not even for Nick. But, for God. I hope that it gives just one more person, or many more people, a look at the amazing hope that we have in Jesus.


As joy-filled as I am, I miss Nick like crazy…

I wish that I could see his face light up when I tell him how many views his YouTube video has.

I wish I could have seen him jump and shout when he found out I was going to the Super Bowl.

I wish I could have seen his smile when his little girl took her first little step yesterday.


What’s great though is that I know just what he would say (an awesome bonus when you have spent almost every waking minute with someone for over 5 years…) First, “Are you serious?” and then, “Alyssa!!! That is amazing!!” and finally, “Good job, bug. Daddy is so proud.”

God never said this life would be easy. Being a “Christian” or following Jesus will not make you or your life perfect. You WILL struggle. You WILL be challenged. You WILL face obstacles that will seem too difficult to overcome. But, God is there. He is next to you. He walks in front of you. And, there is hope in Him. There is undeniable joy in even the worst of pains. There is a joy that surpasses understanding.



  1. Debra says:

    Alyssa, you are such an amazingly strong woman. I think of you and Nick every day. I talk about the journey you have been on and mavel at the grace you continue to show. Life with Nick as your personal angel will be such a huge adjustment, but I know you have the tools and support to take baby steps like your precious daughter and live it like a rock star – or Super Bowl Seahawks fan! Love Debra

  2. Ali says:


    My heart aches for you. You and Nick (your precious family) have inspired so many people in so many ways. For me alone, I am without words at your never ending faith and love in our beloved Father. There are a lot of times people question God, doubt Him, or turn away from Him. Especially when something tragic happens, when we lose our loved ones, when bad things happen to good people etc, but Nick called his cancer a blessing, he thanked God for things most people dealing with such pain and illness would not even think of. My perspective on my day to day life has been changed from your family’s story. Thank you for being so courageous and generous to share all of your joys and hurts to the world for the glory of God! This is why I know that you and Nick are Gods warriors. May blessings and grace continue to pour into your life from our Father and I pray that that He comforts your heart and soul through this difficult time. God bless you beautiful sister in Christ. Nick will never be forgotten, always in the hearts of all of those who knew him and people who have never had the privelage of knowing him (like me). Thank you again and have a wonderful time at the superbowl, Nick will be rigjt there with you. God Bless. <3

  3. J. Angell says:

    God is also in you, which is why you possess the amazing ability to see past your tremendous loss of your beloved husband and touch so many lives with your boundless positivity. You know he is not gone forever and you will be together again. Clearly you have much peace in your heart and my hope is that you always feel your husband’s love & spirit surrounding you and your baby girl. I’m sure your sweet husband had a hand in those tickets coming your way. Things like that are sure signs from him that he is still there, enjoying every moment with you as you continue your journey here on earth. God bless you and your little girl.

  4. Kathy Nelson says:

    I rejoice with you for the relationship you had with Nick and for the amazing relationship you have with Jesus. He is your creator and He will create in you what it takes to get through victoriously. Praying for you and your precious baby girl.

  5. Denise Ekdahl says:

    I love you so much <3

  6. Auntie Karen says:

    Alyssa, I just love you so much and love the way you share your faith. Once again, your writing speaks the truth with such genuine love and trust in our God. May He continue to bless and comfort you as you lean on Him and share His love with others…

  7. Morgan says:

    You do not know me and I do not know you, but I am praying for you as I type this. Our fraternal twin daughters are developing atypically, and we are in the midst of a lot of rares and a lot of unknowns. I came across the video on faithit, and smiled and cried as I watched a story about “strangers”, albeit a brother and sister in Christ, who all too well understand suffering as well. I wrote a blog on this recently and I hope you get a chance to read it as I think you might relate all too well in this season. Thanks for being a reminder that suffering is real but God is good.

  8. Sarah says:

    I saw your video on faithit (I have been looking at it since I started a desk job) and i love the site because it shows tremendous stories of faith, hope, humor, and God’s will for us. Nick’s story sets to prove that God will give us hope in times of hopelessness and for you guys to show that to the world…I’m speechless. The bravery that ya’ll have is amazing. I pray for you and your beautiful daughter and I know that God will take care of you and your family! Blessings from Louisiana :)

  9. Mom says:

    I love you so much honey! And like I’ve said a million times since you were born…I am so proud of you and God has an awesome plan for your life! Watching it unfold and seeing your faith grow is a joy that I would not trade for anything! Thank you Jesus, our Rock and our Redeemer!

  10. Taylor says:

    Your story is a story that is hard to forget. My family is going through this right now. If you have the chance or find the time, please email me. You and your family will be in my prayers and thoughts! Thank you for sharing your story.

  11. Sadie says:

    Your story is an inspiration. My prayers are with you and your family during this time because even though Nick is with Jesus, it’s still a time of mourning for our own selfish, human reasons. You are so strong, and I pray that God continues to give you strength and guidance. I also pray that as Austyn gets older, she will shine the light of Jesus just like her parents. Sending love and prayers your way! God bless you!

  12. Pat says:

    Alyssa my heart goes out to you but praise God you and your husband are Christians and even though God took your husband he gave you both a daughter and your husband got to be with her and share with her for the first seven months of her life and now you that your little jewel will be with you and help you get through these trying times and just remember that if God takes you to it he will bring you through it and I can see he’s already doing that, God bless you and your daughter and may he watch over you.

  13. Lisa says:

    So Sorry for your loss , I lost my oldest Daughter Jan 15 , 2013 from cervical cancer . One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through , she has a 12 year old son and a 10 year old daughter , one brother and two sisters .her husband and her dad and several other family members . I think your story will give others hope in GOD . One day I just happened to look into my daughters room and she was PRAYING and I got so excited … why I don’t know because we are a GODLY family . That was very close to her death and she knew she was going to HEAVEN and so did I . I knew someone was there waiting to take her to Heaven because I asked God to show me a sign that she would be fine and someone she knew would be there for her and I got that answer . I miss her every single day , her smile , laugh ,and so much more . I know its not going to be easy for you , especially when you look at your daughter . Just keep PRAYING and Believing in GOD … That’s how I get through this ,and with the LOVE of my FAMILY and MY GREAT FREINDS . GOD BLESS YOU ALL ..

  14. Sommer Straight says:

    Today as I got up, got my daughter to school to then come home to get ready for work did I check my Facebook and see your husbands post on faithit. I must tell you first I am so so sorry for your loss. Secondly though I hope you smile because I know God but I’m not where I should be in following him. Your husband brought things into perspective in a milasecond. His gift is continuing to help people such as myself to realize what’s important, to not lose sight of every gift that God gives, and to thank him by being faithful to him. Your angel in heaven is continuing to do work here. Thank you so very much.
    Sommer Straight
    Charleston, WV

  15. RY says:

    I came across your husband’s video via a link on Challies. I want to say to add to this and say how the video spoke to me, a young christian wife in the UK. We have been learning about the imperative ‘rejoice always’ 1 Thess 5 and you are a living example of what this means in real life. The impact of the video and blog entries you and Nick have written have caused me to be amazed at the out working of God’s rich grace amidst deep pain and sadness and have helped me think about my daily walk with God and counting our many blessings each day. I have shared your story with my family in detail and on Facebook too. I am praying for you and your little girl at trust that The Lord would continue to direct your paths and give younthatbpeace that passes our understanding. Thankyou x

  16. Sharon McSpadden says:

    Thank you for truly being God’s light and salt to us. The word “Christian” has been viewed almost as a four-letter word because of the evil acts and deeds done by some so-called Christians, but you and your husband’s unwavering faith and trust in God, no matter how bad it got for the two of you, has put the right meaning of what it is to be a follower of Christ Jesus our Lord. Thank you and may God continue to bless you and your daughter.

  17. Kat O'Sullivan says:

    I just saw the video on Godvine, which is an awesome sight with inspiration, God-centered videos. Nick’s message to Austyn, and to the world is so inspiring, and such a wonderful legacy for your beautiful little girl. My heart told me he had passed as I watched this, and I was filled with an overwhelming amount of joy for him. I am so sorry for your loss, and the loss of all who knew him, as he seemed a truly wonderful person. Thank you for sharing him with us. I know God is watching over you.

    In His Love,

  18. Merica says:

    I don’t know you, but I sit on the couch and weep with you. Just know that a fellow sister in Christ is in England “mourning with those who mourn”. So much love and many blessings for your future with your daughter. Life is not over yet for you both.

    Hugs xxx

  19. Valerie says:

    Words cannot express my deep sadness for your loss. My greatest fear is that I will not be able to see my children grow up; from experiencing all of the wonderful firsts to the big life events. But you know what, fear aside, I pray that if I am ever faced with that trial that I will have an outlook as bright as your husband and yourself did. Amazing that you both could smile during such a trying time. Prayers for you and your beautiful daughter; may she always know the love of God and her Dad. God Bless.

  20. Maurice Davis says:

    Your story and blogs touched my heart. Praying for you and your daughter.

  21. Tina Opie says:

    I am so blessed by your testimony! Thank you so much for sharing it and for blessing us with your honesty. Your husband’s video touched me. I plan to show it to my husband and our children. Honestly, your husband testified about the blessings that he found in the midst of his pain. I imagine that you too experience pain as you miss your husband but you also remind us of the blessings that you experience. I am so proud to be a fellow believer in Jesus Christ, standing in prayer with you. Thank you for being a living example of God’s word and His grace. God bless you.

  22. I just saw your video on a friend’s facebook page. I live in Northwest Arkansas. My heart is broken for your loss and I am praying for you and your families.
    I am completely humbled by the beauty and courage you both share with the world in your video. I have sobbed while watching and also shared your video in hopes that others that may not understand the guidance and love of Jesus, will come to know him. May God lift you up and comfort you during this time of loss. Please know that we are all Praying strong for you..
    Love and Prayers from Arkansas.

  23. Nick’s video popped in my newsfeed. My heart breaks for you. Just know that Nick’s life is still impacting others, it has impacted me today. To rely more on my savior, to be a blessing to others, and to praise when it looks like there is no earthly reason to.

  24. Rebecca says:

    Alyssa, you are one amazing woman! Your husband was also such an inspiration! My mom went home 9 years ago and before she left she asked why I was crying.. I said because it was going to be difficult to go through life without her… She responded “I’ll always be in your heart right here and don’t cry for me.. I’ve lived such an awesome life.. God loved me so much he gave me three children that I raised with all my heart and all the love I had! Jehovah is an Awesome God and I’m ready to meet him!” Through all of the suffering all of the pain… In the end as Christians we have God to see us through it! God bless you and your baby girl! Bundle up because it’s COLD here in NY and continue to let your faith and love for God carry you through the rest of your life! This story has impacted me and made me want to shout from the mountain tops- “you’re an awesome God!”

  25. Alyssa, You are a strong and beautiful young lady..Stay strong and keep your faith. Yay..Nick would be soo happy for the Seahawks winning the super bowl.

    God Bless you and your daughter.

  26. momstheword says:

    I just saw your video on facebook. I really don’t have any words to express to a total stranger (but a sister in Christ) my sorrow that you have lost your precious husband but my joy that he is now with Jesus.

    What a wonderful, encouraging and humbling testimony he gave. To see his faith, and his love for you all was a blessing! And very sweet of you to allow us that opportunity to get to know him. You have a precious little daughter together! She is beautiful.

    I am so glad you were able to go to the Super Bowl! I’ll bet you are hoarse today from yelling. You’re not alone. I did up my nails “Sea Hawk” style and rooted for the home team and they did us proud!

    The amazing thing is that, like the Hawks, your husband kept fighting to the end of this life and the beginning of the next. Only instead of receiving a trophy he received his crown. He finished strong. You too, are a fighter. You would have to be after all of this. And you’re going to get through this with God’s grace and strength. Praying for you today. God bless you, my friend!

  27. Kristen says:

    Thank you for sharing your story! It is so inspiring to read! I’m so thankful for your hearts and the joy you have through this really hard time.
    Thank you for allowing God to work through your family and bless the lives of others.
    Nick’s and your family’s legacy lives on!

  28. Colette says:

    Alyssa, I sit here in tears after watching the video from Nick. To then read your memories – I am in awe of your faith, your strength and your love for your family. God tugs at my heart with each tear – I know he’s calling, reminding me that I too can feel the same if I follow. Please know that your family has brought many of us closer toward God. With much love-

  29. Bryan says:

    I hope God gives me the strength I see in Nick to be strong and that I’m half the man. I don’t open my Bible as often as I should and I really should be right now. When I open my Bible tonight it’s because I listened to you in your video. Thank you Nick for being an inspiration to me. Bryan

  30. Dana says:

    Even though we know Nick walks with the Lord, it hurts immensely to lose someone so very close. I’m sure he fought the good fight and knows you will carry on building God’s Kingdom here. All my heart felt compassion for your separation and great joy for his journey into eternity. Although, I am just a voice out of the masses I felt compelled to say thank you for sharing.

    I used to write poems and just felt like sharing one, I hope it blesses you.

    Our Trial, Our Victory

    We live life so grand and pure

    Able to run with the wind

    And dream of greatness

    Stitched together by the hand of God

    Unsuspecting and innocent

    every moment walking into eternity

    Never a faltering step

    Too busy to see the storm

    Or even notice the blessings around us

    Yet running headlong into reality

    Then a sudden collision with fate, we suffer

    And there the reality of life’s trial We find

    A blunt wall, a grand cliff reaching into the sky

    Spanning farther and higher than we can see

    There we fall and sit in misery, pain and self-pity

    Yet a chorus of soft voices we hear

    And as suddenly as fate seemed to steal our life away

    Warriors of Love appear, to stand us up

    Friends, family and strangers all in prayer

    Asking the Lord above to come

    To see our plight and His mercy apply

    And from this desert, this place of desolation

    We hear his voice and feel his arms hold us firm

    With Divine strength we resolve this mountain to climb

    To trust in the prayers sent above

    And take hold of the hand of God

    To embrace him in his reality

    And follow him through to victory

    BY DFS 7/20/2001

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