It’s crazy how drastically things can change from hour to hour. Something goes sideways or in our favor and I think “I’ll need to update the blog on this.” But, just when I think I might have the time to do just that, the situation completely changes. To document it all would be a huge undertaking. One that I think, someday, I will attempt. But, for now, I just don’t have the time. So, when I started this post, I was going to write an update of where Nick is physically and where he is spiritually. Then, I realized that the physical side of it isn’t quite as important. To sum it up: Nick is dying, but he is 100% besides cancer. His young and strong body continues to push on but the cancer is growing fast and causing issues upon issues. (We’d like to remind you at this point that we are ALL dying and that we STILL believe in a God of the impossible. But, we also trust in His massive and amazingly intricate plan for Nick’s life.)
We have made so many hard decisions over the last two years. And, none of them have been made lightly. These decisions seem impossible, at first. How will we ever decide? Whether or not to get a controversial chemo surgery. Where to travel to get the surgery. Whether to start chemo. When to try naturopathic treatments. When to push for a second surgery. Where to get the second surgery. When to start chemo back up. When to call hospice. When to stop chemo for good. We pray, I research, we pray, I study, we pray, we weep, we pray, I read books upon books, we pray, I watch educational videos, we pray again and finally, somehow, God leads us. We end up taking steps forward on paths we never imagined we’d be taking. And, the craziest part is – we take these steps in COMPLETE confidence! It’s absolutely incredible the peace that God grants us with every new decision.
There’s a lot in my heart. A lot that I’ll want to share, at some point. We are facing another big decision and there are so many facets, so many angles. I don’t even know how I would being to explain. So, for now, I think I’ll share what’s on Nick’s heart, instead. I know it’ll be good for you and more enjoyable. And, honestly, it will be good for me too. Nick is so good at redirecting me to the big picture… And, this video does just that in a truly wonderful way.
You may have already seen it (the video below) from a link on our Facebook page or through a friend. But if you haven’t, I want to encourage you to watch it. Actually, not just encourage you, but ask you. People keep asking what they can do for us. Honestly, please keep praying and PLEASE, PLEASE share Nick’s story. Cancer is our tool to spread JOY and we want to swing with ALL our MIGHT.
This video is Nick’s testimony. This video is his heart. These are the words that he wants the world to know. I am so proud of my husband. Every time I tell him just how proud I am, he asks me why. And, he really seems to genuinely wonder. Honey, you have done SO much to help others. Your beautiful heart of gold shines through when you are going through the most intense battles that I have ever witnessed. You have always been so generous and full of life, but to see you hold onto your amazing character through so much suffering is something that will never cease to amaze me. You are my hero and I strive to be like you. To honor you. To share in this journey and share your goal; both of which lead to Jesus.
I ask now that you to join in this journey with us. Share your story. Share our story. We don’t care, just share the JOY that anyone can have in ANY situation. This world is full of hurt. Following Jesus does NOT mean that your life will be all rainbows and unicorn farts. It will be hard. You will have trials. You will struggle. You will wonder if He is even there… He is. Sometimes, it’s just hard to see through all the grime.
So, watch this. Rewatch this. Share this on your facebook page, in your google circles, through email, wherever. Then, when you are done, for extra measure: Re-share it… again.
One day, you will find that helping someone else is one of the greatest gifts you can receive. Because, one day, you too will finally realize that helping others is the ONLY thing that mattered all along.