Wondering How We’re Doing?

Days pass so quickly and, at the same time, so slowly. Yesterday marked 3 months. 3 MONTHS. A quarter of a year since I’ve seen the one that I love. A quarter of a year since I saw the last breath leave his lungs. A quarter of a year since I saw his beautiful face.

I can only imagine what he is doing now. But, I know that it must be wonderful. I’m not positive that there is breathing in heaven, but there must be something like it. Some sort of rhythm to the beautiful life that continues to unfold. And, with every breath or pseudo-breath, I know that Nick is smiling.

I’m so thankful for those that continue to support my daughter and I. Thankful to those who continue to love us and those that honor Nick by remembering what God lead him to teach us. That every single moment counts.

Three months out, and I am blessed beyond what I could have ever imagined. And, yes, I know that sounds crazy. But, what you’ll find crazier, is that I actually believe it with all my heart.

Make a difference. Don’t forget. You only get one chance down here…

#GodsGotIt #WeAreNeverAlone #TeamMagnotti


  1. Heather says:

    I don’t know you but I came across your blog and just want to add my witness that God is doing amazing things with Nick’s life, your life, and Austyn’s life. Each post that I read from you reminds me that life is a test, has purpose, meaning, and beauty. Even in the dark times. There is so much hope in your gratitude and beauty in the pain you must feel. In a world full of negativity I relish in the peace, hope, and power of God I see from your life and the way you choose to live it. Thank you and I pray The Lord will bless you!

  2. Roddy Vera says:

    Hello My name is Roddy from Ecuador a small country Latin America Im very impressed about your story thank you for teachme the significant of true Love.

    Best Regards

  3. Melissa says:

    You are a remarkable soul May Gods grace watch after you as he is, I can tell by who you are. You are so precious

  4. Ide says:

    Alyssa, Thank you for sharing your story. I came across and started reading your story, it filled my eyes with tears. As a christian, wife and mother I must say that your such an inspiration. The love you both share but most of all Nick’s love for God is amazing. May God continue to bless you and your baby girl always.

    Thank You for reminding me that life is too short and it’s those little moments that we share that matter the most.

  5. Jess says:

    Wow you’re such a strong woman, I really admire you, I’m 25 and I lost my mom of lymphona cancer almost 3 years ago and at this time I’m still not able to put my life back together. When the time passes you start to understand that our real goal here on earth is to live the life up to the fullest and to mark a difference in the world; it can either be the way that you live, the way the you love, the way the you enjoy every little second of it… Your daughter is the most wonderful expression of god’s love and you being a mother is a gift so you can transmit her all the meaning of living according to God’s plan, so one day we can all be together reunited and happy for the eternity in heaven.

  6. Angela says:

    My brother was diagnosed with this 2 weeks ago, stage 4… Please let me know how I can best help him and his family in what lies ahead…

  7. Abby says:

    Your husband has helped me strengthen my love for the lord! Nick helped me not take life for granted. He helped me want to know God more and more!
    Something drew me to get on Facebook for i haven’t been on in a year. Then right away I was drawn to Nicks video. God steered me in this direction. I am a 35 year old mother of a 11 year old. My husband has muscular dystrophy and doesn’t know when his last day with us will be. He suffers in severe pain every day. In watching Nicks message that is so powerful my husband’s pain went away and he was feeling God’s overwhelming love as did I. I pray for you in your grief and your daughter in the lords name. A MEN
    If I can be there in any way at all please email me. Godspeed.

  8. Lorri French says:

    God Bless you , your daughter and family. I was touched by the video of Nick and his wonderful message to his daughter and others .

  9. Altin says:

    Dear Alyssa,
    Thank you for sharing such an inspirational and heartfelt story.
    I watched Nick’s video today and my heart was full of inspiration and love as my eyes were full of tears. I am sure your lives have touched thousand upon thousands of lives and hearts around the world. Nick ran successfully his race and he is with His lovely heavenly Father.
    I have no words to help you with your grief, because I believe that there are no words that can describe or ease your pain, however my heart and prayers are with you and your family.
    I pray God’s peace, comfort and provision for you and your family.

    In Christ love


  10. Nominisha I. Pitt says:

    Came across your story tonight and I just want to tell you a few things.
    1) Thank you for sharing your story with the world
    2) Thank you for sharing your husband with the world during a very intimate time.
    3) Your family is so wonderful and blessed
    4) Your a true inspiration for all battling the C-Word!!
    And finally
    5) I LOVE YOU ALL !!!!
    God Bless You and Keep Striving towards the mark!!!

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